Week 47 01/31/2008
Ghosts
Maintaining my weight loss goal(s) in the past has typically been my downfall. I mean, the ‘losing the weight’ part is really only half the battle, right? It’s keeping it off that has most of us tied in knots. In fact, the other night I actually dreamed that I had gained my weight back! What a nightmare…But I had gained it back SO many times before Jenny Craig, I can see why I jumped right back to that place.
In the light of the next day, I was relieved to find my self in control, and with the tools to stay right where I want to be. I met with my consultant, Kathy, who reminded me that as an unconscious eater it was really important for me to journal everything.
She also gave me a hug.
“Valerie, you’re fine.” She said. “Look at how great you are doing!” I really needed to hear that. Because it’s not just a number on the scale for me…it’s the brain chatter – the old habitual ways of thinking that you need to be aware of---and respond to with strong, positive self-talk. Kathy reminds me to do that.
Now before you think I’m nuts, running around with voices in my head, please know that I’m just human. Yes, I lost the 40 pounds - but the ghost of Valerie’s past still haunts me at times.
I am just so thankful for all of you and Kathy
xoxo
Val
